Chapter 22: Now or Never
“Again” is the first word in the dictionary of a CA student.
Going through the unending process of exam- results- exam, the whole process
was extremely painful, and at times disappointing, after having tried all permutations
of choice of books and coaching classes and notes and endless waits between
exams, results and anxiety, the level of frustration was higher than ever. I
felt like going back to Delhi, but it is never easy to accept the defeat. Had
my life been the same normal, Anushka sticking around and supporting me and
pampering me and caring for me even after a bad result I might have not
bothered much about the whole issue but she was not there with me. I was very
much alone and now the same Mumbai where I thought my life is happening just
happened to be a night mare. But it is a human tendency to discover oneself in
the times of adversity and for once I thank Anushka for having left me
heartbroken and uncared and unloved, I discovered myself again.
Love like sweets are at times harmful for growth and I was
now diabetic in love, God saved me from the attitude of once again and I was
determined and vengeful towards my subjects and I worked hard to conquer them.
It became an obsession. I did not want to leave any stone unturned this time
and I had in my mind undertaken that it would be now or never. I had my duties
towards
I started off my day quite early in the morning, it used to
be still dark in Mumbai, but that did not interfered with my routine. My books
were better than any girl. They had no expectations but were ready to give
everything they had. I realized for the first time how much I loved my books. I
could not take my eyes off them and read them thoroughly. I thought it was an
infatuation and would be soon over however I realized that my love for them was
increasing and towards the exam days I was totally engrossed in it. I was
soaked in them to the core and they did not betray. All my exams went pretty
well and for the first time I was convinced what I wrote. Anushka was still
somewhere in the memory but she started fading away.
Meanwhile Akshya was on the verge of completing her MBA, she
had a pre placement offer of ********* (no I won’t disclose), I won’t be making
that much( at least I thought so ) hence no need of disclosures but she was my
sister and would have been my first client so I was very happy to know the
vulgar amount that she would be charging sitting in her posh Gurgaon office.
But my happiness was even more because she had found someone of her choice.
Although she said she was confused about him but I knew that this Guy,
(Abhishek) is going to be the Mr. Right for her. She had her reservation as he
was a north Indian and it would take some time for mom to adjust to the concept
of “2 States”, as Chetan Bhagat had created.
But I guess my parents dealt with it in a far more understanding manner.
Dad just said one thing, stick on to this relationship for one year and then
decide and it went perfectly well with couple. They were much in love and
agreed to it unquestioningly.
In between it was my D day again, the result was expected
and I just became more nervous than ever. The feeling of heart just jumping
around and brain throbbing simultaneously is not one of the best feelings. It
was as if I was taking a roller coaster ride without belts to protect you from
falling. I was experiencing blackouts, momentarily I had some pain in my chest,
I thought I might just die of anxiety and panic. My throat was in constant need
of water and I gulped almost 3-4 litres to satisfy the thirst.
I was on the net and I fairly arranged my surrounding,
praying Lord Karthik and other crores of God to just help me. It was a now or
never for me and with each passing second I could not control . Tears had
started coming off already, and yes even though I am a guy I cry and I am proud
of it.
The result was announce, I entered my roll number and waited
, the page was uploaded and I would in that very moment have exploded with the
maount of tensions in side me. I had given my best and I was just there numb
and sweaty and no palpable audacity surrounded me.
The uploading process took some time and I froze , I could
not believe that I cleared it. I will not go in the miiscule details of the
marks and all but all I could gather from it was I was a CA. the dream of being
CA. V Adithya Iyer was finally achieved. The attitude of “now or never” paid off
well.
My mother could not believe it, she was crying more than me and
Akshya was all excited and dad was at peace. I was now a CA.
